Blood bounces quite strikingly on snow not only because of the obvious color/contrast discrepancy, but the large difference in temperatures.
Reflected Beauty. We are all, in some degree, reflections. Reflections of our inner self. Our thoughts and emotions. Our values and beliefs. Our beauty; different and unique compared to anyone else, yet breathtaking that such an intense amount of being exists in a single soul.
God. Family. Friends. University. Basketball. Laughter.
Six words reflecting upon the year.
Another year passes. I have become increasingly aware of the time that ticks forever onward. It saddens me somewhat to think that my twentieth draws nearer. There is much I have done this year, yet much I wanted to do. Each day spilling over to the next to the point where days become blurred and my sense of time hazes into a mist.
It’s been two big years of thought and growth. Being plunged into university, I was thrown into the chaotic blender of books, independence, love, heartbreak, struggles, friendships and diplomacy, only for God to set everything to peace.
Following the breakup of my first love at the start of the year, singleness strengthened my independence, as well as my dependency on God. I was quick to seek comfort in friend and distractions, a foolish embarkation when I should have sought the one who knew and loved me the most. Emotionally fueled thoughts and words that followed; things I do no boast of. Apologising being one of the nerve-racking thing I’ve done in my life.
I do miss the companionship, someone where everything just clicked and you could spend hours in silence with so long as they were there. I guess I pray and trust God for the one to come, according to His will, the person and time.
Setting aside this morbid tone and brooding of a lost love, it actually has been a long, tiring yet a (the best way I could describe) good year. Second year of medicine has kept the wheels turning, being able to see and learn such amazing and confronting things. Cadavers, dissections, patients and the skills learned is preparing for what will be an amazing year to come.
New friendships formed and old ones strengthened, I realise how blessed I am to have such people in my life. They’re be in it for the long haul.
I have also recently been baptised! A reflection of my faith, for all to see. It was rather difficult afterwards as I came to term of how weak and vulnerable I truly was, displaying for all to see. But that’s the truth, being in the mercy of the Lord, and the loving arms of Christ.
He must increase, but I must decrease. John 3:30
So now I sit writing this, approaching midnight. My barrier exams only a week and a half away. Procrastination at it’s finest. I apologise for the choppiness of each section, butI shall cut short here. It’s great to start writing again. Perhaps the summer break may bring more.